Well it finally happened. I’ve GAINED instead of losing. I know I’ve been on a pretty amazing streak and I know it was bound to happen sooner or later but dammit, I’m pissed! The last week or so, I’ve been making some pretty unhealthy food choices. I justified this by staying within my daily calorie limit, even if it was food that was loaded in fat, sodium, carbs, etc. It caught up to me. I weighed myself tonight and was SHOCKED to see that I have gained somewhere between 5 and 7 pounds. Shocked and pissed.
I’m trying to maintain a “live and learn” attitude about the whole thing but I’m so damned mad at myself. I worked WAY too hard to lose this weight to gain it back over a few bad choices. I did have one moment of clarity tonight at the gym when I sat back and realized even though I’ve gained a few pounds back, I’m STILL at a 50 pound weight loss. And that’s nothing to be ashamed of.
I know what I need to do. I know the choices I need to make. And I also had a very harsh reality check. This weight can, and will, come back with a vengeance if I slide.
The slide stops now.
